Posted in jobs, work

Important interview

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Today I had an important interview at my local hospital.

I saw the position advertised mid-January, and applied the day after with a lot of excitement. It’s a job that I’m actually qualified for – experience desirable but not required, as the job included in-house training. I’ve got lab experience, and I’ve got experience working in a hospital setting, among other work experience from different jobs.

The online application closed 2 weeks earlier than the close date due to an overwhelming amount of response, so I was lucky to get an interview. I must have done something right on my application to have even made it this far.

Today was the big day. I prepped as much as possible for the interview. I got my interview outfit ready the night before so I wouldn’t be stressing in the morning, I printed off a copy of my online application and highlighted key pieces that I thought might be worth talking about, I typed up my previous lab experience so that I could look over it beforehand and prepare for any questions that might be asked, I printed out the Trust values to look over in case there was an opportunity to impress and show off my preparedness, and I wrote down the questions I wanted to ask them so I wouldn’t forget.

I did everything I possibly could to get ready, because that’s how much this job opportunity means to me. I even cancelled my holiday in order to be able to make it to the interview at all, even though it meant that I lost the money I’d spent on my flights.

The interview wasn’t what I expected.

The first thing they asked me was to tell them about myself and my hobbies. That threw me off. My mind went completely blank and I forgot anything and everything that I’m interested in.

I was expecting questions about my previous experience, my work ethic, and things like that. Admittedly they did ask some questions about if I’m able to work well under pressure, if I can work independently, and if I can handle confrontational colleagues/ patients, but nothing about my previous experiences.

I think I came across okay though. They seemed really nice, and I think that I answered the questions they did ask me well. I asked them the questions I had prepared and they seemed happy that I had thought to prepare questions. They also seem like a pretty chill department to work for! They have a very relaxed dress-code, and seemed to have no problem with me asking about uniform, hair colour, and piercings.

They said I should hear back from them by the end of this week, so at least it won’t be too long of a wait before I know either way!

Fingers-crossed for me guys. And while you’re at it, cross everything else for me too.

I’ll let you know how it goes!

See you again soon. xo

One important key to success is self-confidence. An important key to self-confidence is preparation.

– Arthur Ashe

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Posted in books, london, Reviews

More thoughts on Cursed Child

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**Warning! This review contains spoilers, so if you have not read the book and/or watched the play and don’t want anything ruined for you, please stop reading now!**

Seriously. Stop reading. I am not responsible for your disappointment if you see anything you didn’t want to. This is your last chance…

Okay. We good? Everyone here that wants to be here? Good! Let’s begin.

Not that long ago I wrote a post on my mid-week London getaway to go see Harry Potter and the Cursed Child. In the interest of not ruining it for anyone, I gave a very watered-down review that I don’t think gave the show justice, despite my enthusiasm for it. So this post is going to dive deeper into my thoughts and feelings on the show, holding nothing back, so that I can truly review my experience for you. And I’m not going to lie, it’s for my own satisfaction as well, because it was so hard to write about it and not be able to completely fangirl.

Let’s start at the very beginning.

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One thing I did really love about both the book and the play is that they start exactly where Deathly Hallows Part 2 finishes. The final scene where all the kids of the golden trio are off to Hogwarts is brought back as a refresher, so everyone starts on the same page. Pun intended.

While we’re on the subject of the golden trio, we need to mention “Black Hermione”. A lot of people had a massive issue with Hermione being black, as everyone is so used to the fabulous Emma Watson as the image we see when we think of that character. But as it’s been pointed out, Hermione’s skin colour was never mentioned in the books! I’m personally not fussed either way. For me, Hermione will always be Emma Watson, but I have no problem with her being black. It doesn’t change the storyline in any way, and if anything it just makes the “mudblood” stigma in the main books all the more sad, as it’s another discrimination for her to face (assuming that there is any discrimination against her colour, as it seems wizards aren’t all that fussed about ethnicity from what I can tell). Regardless, black Hermione was just as sassy as Emma Watson’s Hermione, and her daughter, Rose, definitely gets it from her.

The stage set up for the platform scene is so cleverly done! In fact, all of the scenes are cleverly done, as they truly immerse you and sometimes make you forget that you’re watching it on a stage without all the special effects. The use of props, lighting, and a very clever rotating floor are amazing. I am in awe of the people working behind the scenes on this, as they are the real wizards. I think my favourite moving scene has got to be the escape from the Hogwarts Express, on top of the train. My favourite stationary scene is probably Godric’s Hollow. I loved the set up of the doors and the glowing pumpkins.

I mentioned in my previous post that no matter where you’re sat, there was something happening around you that you could see. It was very immersive. We’ll start with the lighting. During the scene where Delphi’s room is being searched, they find a secret message written on the wall. This message is projected onto the walls and ceiling in the theatre, along with scribbles and ramblings that look like they belong in an insane asylum. No matter where you’re sat you are able to read the message and the scribbles alongside it. During the intervals there were “windows” on each floor that shows a relevant image for the part of the story we were in. For example, the new dark mark being displayed between act 1 and 2.

I also mentioned that there were certain parts where actors come towards you on all the levels. What I didn’t mention was that these were dementors. There is a scene in the Forbidden Forest that involves dementors, and as well as being on stage with the other actors, there were some on wires that fly towards you in the audience, coming up to all the different levels of seating. The chilling music, the cold lighting, the fluid and dream-like movement of the dementors, it was so powerful. Sitting in the front row of the grand circle was especially terrifying, as they come fairly close to you! Breathtaking.

Another scene where an actor comes towards you is towards the very end of the show. After the battle with Delphi in the church, Voldemort is seen walking to the Potter house. At this point, Voldemort actually walks from the back of the stage, all the way to the front, and then out through the centre aisle of the ground level seats. This is the only time that being ground level is actually a benefit, however you are able to see Voldemort right up until the point where he disappears under the balcony.

Moving on now, I want to talk about the extra extras. I mentioned in my previous post how much I loved the overdramatic extras when removing set pieces from the stage, and I have to mention them again here because I honestly loved how over-the-top the sass was. At the end of a scene there would be some dramatic transition music, and then the extras in the scene would either take a prop with them when they exited the stage, or – if they weren’t actually part of the scene – they would come onto stage, did a bit of a swooshy dance with their cloak, and then whirl their cloaks dramatically, covering the set object, and glide while wheeling it off stage under their cloak. I know it really shouldn’t be, but the extras during the set changes were honestly one of my favourite parts.

While we’re on the subject of dramatic music and amazing extras, let’s do a quick bit on the choreography! If I’m being perfectly honest, the dancing made me feel more like I was watching a musical, and I kept fully expecting the cast to suddenly burst into song. I understand why it was necessary, because it did make the transitions more exciting. Without the music and dancing, I feel like scene and set changes would have felt a lot more clunky and noticeable, which would then break your concentration and remind you that you’re just watching a show.

Up next: the cast. Obviously I have to talk about the wonderful acting from the main cast. I’m especially impressed that a lot of the actors played multiple parts! Bravo to you all! Thanks to my spoiler warning, I can actually talk about specific characters now! I mentioned a stand out performer in my previous post, and I am so excited to now be able to fangirl over him with you all! Jonathan Case, who plays Scorpius Malfoy, was absolutely spectacular. He was my favourite by far, and I thought he really made Scorpius come to life. He’s honestly better than I imagined him from the book. Admittedly he was very camp, and I’m honestly not sure if it was intentional or not, but I loved him regardless. Had a crush on Tom Felton’s Draco, and now I’m crushing on his fictional son.

Speaking of Draco! He looks so much like his father! Whaaaatttt!?

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Considering how much Draco feared and sometimes despised his father, you’d think he wouldn’t want to look anything like him, but here he is, with his long, slicked back hair in a ponytail. I like that Scorpius couldn’t be further from his father though. Obviously he still has the white blonde hair, but in terms of style and mannerisms they could not be more different. Draco does have some great one-liners that I found highly amusing, so that was a bonus.

Carrying on with appearances, Barry McCarthy’s Dumbledore was spot on. He honestly killed it as Albus, and I loved it. David Annen’s Snape was spot on looks-wise too, but I did get emotional when he first appeared. Despite having the look, without Alan Rickman’s voice it just wasn’t the same. You will be missed. Always. David Annen’s Voldemort, however, was terrifying. Somehow the stage Voldemort looked more disturbing than movie Voldemort. My final thoughts on character appearances, I have to mention Delphi’s hair. I loved her hair, and honestly I want it. The blue ends looked amazing, and she was rocking the bad-girl look.

The only other character I need to mention is the sorting hat. That’s right, the sorting hat is not a prop, but an actor. The iconic hat became an actual character in the show. I don’t know how to feel about it. Mark Theodore pulled it off though, with his sharp suit and bowler hat for the sorting. And his portrayal of Hagrid was spectacular.

Just because I haven’t mentioned everyone individually is not in any way a reflection on their acting, or their character appearances. Honestly everyone was completely fabulous, and I was stunned by the acting abilities! This post is long enough as it is though, so I decided to talk about the select few that I had strong opinions on.

Phew! We got there. I hope you’ve enjoyed reading my more in depth review of Harry Potter and the Cursed Child, and if you decided to keep reading despite the spoiler warning at the beginning I did warn you. I accept no responsibility for your decision, my friend.

Let me know what you thought, and let me know if I’m crazy for having a bit of a thing for the Malfoys! I would honestly love to know your opinions on anything I’ve said.

I’ll see you all again soon. xo

My geekness is a-quivering.

– Scorpius Malfoy, Harry Potter and the Cursed Child

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Nox.

Posted in anxiety, jobs, mental health

Update: New opportunities and mixed feelings

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So, I haven’t been blogging much recently, and quite honestly it’s killing me a little bit inside. But I’ve got an exciting opportunity (as well as a thousand other things that I’m juggling) that has been keeping me busy.

In January I applied for a job working in the labs for my local hospital. It’s a decent job, where I would be putting my university experience to good use for a change, rather than just wasting it, and most importantly it’s much better pay and consistent hours. I got an interview for it! They closed the application 2 weeks early due to the overwhelming amount of applicants, so I’m lucky to have even gotten an interview!

However, this job opportunity hasn’t come without cost. It’s caused some pretty serious arguments and tension between me and my other half – thankfully this has been resolved. It’s also caused no end of mental and emotional turmoil for me. I keep yo-yoing back and forth between being excited and being anxious. You know what, anxious doesn’t even begin to cover what I’m feeling. I’m scared, I’m sad, I’m overwhelmed, I’m anxious, and I’m feeling guilty.

I’m a people-pleaser. That is an ingrained fact about me.

I have a deep need to be needed. I actually only really discovered this about myself last year in group therapy. I have a very intense need for people to need me. For me to be useful. This may have started as a need to be liked, but as I’ve gotten older I’ve realised that I don’t need everyone to like me, I just need to be useful. I need to be valuable as a person, otherwise what’s my point? What’s the purpose of me being here if I’m not useful?

Back to the point.

The point I’m trying to make is that despite this interview being the right choice FOR ME, in terms of long term plans and future opportunities, I still have a horrible sickness inside of me that doesn’t want me to leave my current job. Because I don’t want to disappoint people. I don’t want to let anyone down. So part of me wants to be miserable and stay just so that I can make others happy.

Don’t get me wrong, the people are lovely. I’ve made some amazing friends in this job, and I fully intend on keeping in contact with them if and when I leave. But I don’t see a future in this job. The progression options (if I ever get that far) don’t appeal to me, and the inconsistency in weekly hours means an unstable future. There are a lot of things that I don’t like about the job, but there are still things that I will miss.

But my problem is that I’m struggling with not feeling guilty about something that is the right move for me.

Despite knowing that this is the right thing to do, and knowing that if a friend was telling me the same thing I would 100% be telling them to do what makes them happy and forget everyone else, I still feel like I’m a failure and letting everyone down.

My head is chaos right now. I really can’t wait for this whole thing to be over.

 

Thank you for putting up with my rambling. I promise there are some new posts in the works that will be coming soon! When I get time to sit down I will be sharing all sorts of new content with you guys.

I’ll see you again real soon. xo

True guilt is guilt at the obligation one owes to oneself to be oneself. False guilt is guilt felt at not being what other people feel one ought to be or assume that one is.

– R. D. Laing

 

Posted in books, london, Reviews

Harry Potter and the Cursed Child

Day 2 of my mid-week London adventure!

The whole reason me and my other half went to London is because we had booked tickets to see Harry Potter and the Cursed Child Part 1 and 2. We decided that we didn’t want to do a day trip, because that’s too much stress, so we booked an AirB&B for 2 nights to make it into a more relaxed trip!

So Wednesday 23rd of January was Cursed Child day!

It was amazing!

I honestly don’t even have the words to describe it, but I’m going to try my best for you guys!

It was magical – pun intended.

I’m going to try and talk about it without revealing anything, so those of you that haven’t read the book/ watched the show you won’t need to worry about spoilers!

We were lucky with seating. We were the front row of the Grand Circle, so we had a good view of the stage. This view in fact…

The only downside of the front row is the limited leg room! I got dead legs and pins-and-needles in my feet! So worth it though.

Something that I thought was a great touch was that no matter where you were sat, you had something happening around you. There were certain parts where the actors came towards you on all levels, there were parts where there were projections on the ceiling and walls, there was something for everyone, no matter where you were.

The sets were beautiful, and the choreography was impressive! In regards to the sets, one of my absolute favourite parts of the show was the set changes! The extras were so extra when removing set pieces! I don’t think I can do it justice with words, but I’m going to give it a go. They come on stage, and then whirl their cloaks dramatically, covering the set object, and then glide while wheeling it off stage under their cloak. I couldn’t stop giggling! It was just so over-dramatic and so extra that I kept having a little chuckle to myself!

And, of course, I have to mention the acting. I cannot express enough how wonderful the actors were. I won’t mention any specific characters, just in case of spoilers, but I will say that the sheer talent in those actors was mind-blowing. I’ve just realised that I can’t completely fan-girl over my favourite character with you guys! That’s frustrating. Let’s just say I had a clear stand out performer in my mind, who shone far above everyone else for me!

A quick shout out to all the people behind the scenes: the lighting, the props, the costumes, hair and makeup, the directors, etc., you’re all fabulous. You’ve done a wonderful job, and should be super proud!

Admittedly as a Harry Potter fan I am slightly opposed to Cursed Child as canon, but as a show I think it was spectacular. I highly recommend seeing it if you get the chance! Or at the very least read the screenplay. Both are very good, but the show is far better than what I imagined in my head when reading.

That’s it from me for now, I think I’ve rambled on long enough. Let me know if you’ve read the screenplay or watched the show! I’d love to know what you thought.

I’ll see you all again soon. xo

I’m Rubeus Hagrid. And I’m gonna be yer friend whether yeh like it or not.

– Rubeus Hagrid, Harry Potter and the Cursed Child

Posted in london

Natural History Museum

So for those of you that have been following my blog for a while now, you might remember that back in the summer I tried to go to the Natural History Museum in London, and it didn’t go too well…

For those of you that want a reminder of what happened, or if you’re new and have no idea what I’m talking about, you can click here to see the post.

I went to London for 3 days this week, and managed to squeeze in a trip to the Natural History Museum! It went far more successfully this time, thanks to the freezing cold weather and grey, overcast sky.

This might sound like a miserable day, but that’s what made it perfect for a visit to the museum!

When I tried to go during the summer it was too hot and crowded. It’s a very old building, so there is no air conditioning. Add to that the many, many windows that are all around the building, and the crushing amount of people, and you get a very overwhelming hot greenhouse situation.

But it’s winter!

Oh yes, it’s a typical British winter. Wet, grey, cold, and miserable. Who wants to go out in that? Me! The nerd that needs to kill some time in London. Normally this kind of weather makes me want to stay indoors, curl up with a good book and a hot chocolate, and not move for hours – unfortunately the AirB&B that we booked had needed to call out the boiler man for our stay, and they could only come between 3 and 4 pm.

Not a problem! Me and the other half decided we’d check in, drop off our stuff, and then head out and find something to do for a few hours. “Now, Darling, what do you fancy doing?”… Hmmm… Let me think… MUSEUM PLEASE!

(I would just like to clarify, that “quote” was to be read in a posh English accent, and that neither me nor my other half call each other darling unless we’re doing it in a jokey way with a very exaggerated accent. In other words, that’s not how the conversation went at all, but it felt right to type it like that.)

The good news is, I really enjoyed myself. I enjoyed geeking out, giving my partner further information on some of the subjects that wasn’t included, and learning new things! (Did you know that a Narwhal’s horn is essentially a very long tooth?) The mammal exhibit brought back some great memories of my trip to South Africa, and the gorilla found on the first floor made me think of my dad.

The bad news is, yet again I didn’t get to finish the whole museum. We didn’t get there until 3pm, and there is a lot to see. We didn’t manage to get round it all in time before closing! Oh well, I guess I’ll just have to go up again… Tehe.

To finish our little outing we decided to pay a quick visit to the Oxford Street Primark. Why? Because it has an entire Harry Potter section. Literally a whole off-shoot in the store is just dedicated to the franchise, and it’s beautiful! I may have bought a couple of little things… Very little things, seeing as money is not going well currently. But still so worth the visit!

Back to the flat, yummy home-cooked dinner, and day 1 was complete. Phew!

I shall post my other London adventures in the upcoming days, so stay tuned!

I’ll see you real soon. xo

A museum is a place where nothing was lost, just rediscovered…

– Nanette L. Avery

Posted in About me, Resolutions, Reviews

The new year so far

We’re a week in to 2019 now, guys!

So far, so good. I’ve decided to try to be super on it and organised this year, and I think it’s going pretty well at the moment!

Part of my plan to keep on top of everything is by having the right tools for the job.

I’ve bought 3 main planners/ journals/ diaries this year, each with a different purpose.

My I am very busy planner from WHSmith.

This is perfect for bulk planning sessions. It has monthly tabs to make it easy to flip to the section you want, and within each month you have 4 main sections: goals for the month and the plan of action; the whole month to view; week to view; and reflections for the month. It also has a year planner for 2020, so you can even make a quick note of important dates for next year!

My I am very busy diary from WHSmith.

This is literally my daily diary/ journal. Every evening I write down what happened in my day, as well as my thoughts and feelings. There’s also a handy year to view section at the back which I’m using as a mood tracker. I’ve created a key for the different highlighter colours I’m using, and keeping track of my daily moods and emotions (including anxiety and depression days).

My Balance Planner from Kickstarter.

This little beauty is my life planner. The purpose of the balance planner is that it splits your life into key areas, and gives you a chance to focus on what you want to aim towards in each of those areas.

The main areas of focus are: work/ study; self growth; body/ health; relationships; friends/ leisure; and spirituality.

The planner starts with your yearly goals, your ‘vision board’, and your ideal version of you (while being realistic about your limitations). Then it moves on to your monthly goals, and then weekly goals. The yearly, monthly, and weekly goals are all split into the 6 main areas, so you can focus on what’s most important.

After each weekly goals page there is a week to view spread over 2 pages, with a mini to do list at the bottom of each day. Following that there is a weekly gratitude page, with space to write your biggest win of the week at the bottom.

To some people this may seem like an excessive amount of things to be able to keep organised, especially to those who are able to organise their entire lives on their phone – you are truly magical beings to me. It’s all down to personal preference. Some people work better with physical pen and paper, some people prefer to have everything digital for ease and convenience. I am without a doubt a pen and paper kind of girl. And 3 different books means I can split my needs into different categories, which is what I need in order for my brain to make sense of things.

Let me know what methods you use to keep organised and on top of things, I’d love to know what works for you!

Here’s to a more organised and efficient new year!

Organization isn’t about perfection; it’s about efficiency, reducing stress and clutter, saving time and money and improving your overall quality of life.

– Christina Scalise

Posted in Film Review, Reviews, Uncategorized

Film Review: Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse

Shameik Moore in Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse (2018)

Oh. My. Goodness.

I honestly don’t even know where to start with this film review.

I should probably start by saying that I am a HUGE Marvel fan. I love superheroes. I love the messages that they send. I love the relatability of the characters. I love that you can enjoy the films without having to be a super fan. I would love to read the comics. I’d love to have the complete collection and know the ins-and-outs of all of the details and references. But I don’t have the time or money for that. So instead I watch the films, and enjoy the memes, and have a lively debate on who would beat who in fights.

That’s enough of an intro… On to the review!

This was so beautifully done. I honestly don’t even have the words. It was incredible, spectacular, superb, brilliant, wonderful, and emotional.

I loved the storyline. I’m so happy that Miles was able to step into the spotlight! I loved the multiple timelines and the multiple characters that came with them. The dynamic between all the Spiders was like a crazy family.

I loved the artwork. The style and design for this film was beautiful. My only complaint would be the beginning of the title sequence. All of the glitching effect gave me a headache and made me feel a bit sick. Thankfully that soon passed. Other than that, it was a visually stunning film! I really enjoyed the cartoon style. It made a nice change to the live-action films that we’ve been used to from Marvel (not that I don’t love them too).

There were some amazing twists that I wasn’t expecting, some witty jokes, and – much to my absolute delight – a classic Stan Lee appearance. Rest in peace you wonderful human being. The atmosphere in the screen was magical.

Honestly one of my favourite films. I can see this being the kind of film I’ll watch again and again. If you haven’t seen it yet, I thoroughly recommend it. Even if you’re not a Marvel fan, it’s still a good watch for everyone. Sure, you might not understand a few of the references, but the main storyline is still worth it.

I’ll see you again soon, nerds! xo

Excelsior!

One thing I know for sure: don’t do it like me. Do it like you.

– Peter B. Parker, Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse