Let’s face it, this year has been… Well, there is a lot of words I could use to describe this year. Interesting, tough, difficult, strange, different, a nightmare, challenging – you name it, that’s what it is.
But despite all the trials and challenges, despite all of the horror and sadness, there have actually been some positives this year for a lot of people. And with all the news and the media showing us the things that have gone wrong, on this blog I want us to focus on the things that went right.
I did a roundup post last year, in which I started by saying I wasn’t sorry to be saying goodbye to 2019. Oh poor, naive 2019 Kirsty. You had no idea what was coming. If you want to check out what happened last year, just click the link!
So, let’s crack on with the run-down of 2020:
- I went to Italy for the first time in February! It was absolutely beautiful, the people were super friendly, and I would definitely like to go back. I currently don’t have a post about it, but I may create a backdated one… in which case I will add the link here once it’s complete!
- My anxiety went through the roof in May. Working in a healthcare setting while there is a pandemic is stressful enough as it is without mental health issues on top of it. I started off okay, I was hanging in as best I could, and then I just couldn’t do it anymore. I kept crying at work all the time, shaking and unable to focus. I just couldn’t function. So I ended up being signed off work for 2 months, and the mental health nurse at the GP upped my antidepressant dosage – which then led to a lot of other problems for a while, but that’s a different post.
- I changed jobs! While I was signed off sick I did a lot of thinking about what made me happy, and future plans. My other half and I are saving to move out together, so I knew I needed a full-time job. A full-time post for the same job I was already doing came up, but for different departments! I had already met one of the new managers so I knew I liked her, and everyone told me how nice the other manager was. I applied for the job, and arranged for an informal chat with both of them to make myself known and show that I was eager, and shortly after the interviews I got the job! Some more problems occurred here too, but that is also a different post – the main thing to focus on here is that I love my new position and I’m much happier.
- During the times that we weren’t locked down, I got to see my friends. Even when we were locked down, our group chats have been what’s kept me going. I am surrounded with so much love and support, and I am truly grateful for the absolute diamonds that are my friends. You’re all amazing.
- Thankfully, I have been extremely lucky not to have been personally impacted by COVID-19. I have had some work colleagues that have had it (all of which recovered after just a few weeks), however no close family or friends that I know of.
So that’s it. That’s 2020 in a nutshell.
Needless to say, Christmas was very quiet this year. Present deliveries were made by dropping bags at doors, wearing a mask, and social distancing. No group nights with friends, no annual family Christmas meal with my out-of-town relatives, no end of term meals/ parties with my Guides and Rangers, no Christmas Day at my auntie’s house. This year has just been me and my dad at home. Good thing we’re both home-bodies and don’t get stir crazy.
I really haven’t been on the blog much this year. As much as that frustrates me (because I expect better from myself), I’m not going to worry too much about it because let’s face it: I’ve had other things on my mind during a pandemic. It’s been a difficult year and I’ve done what was best for me during all this – I needed to disconnect from the world, from all the doom-and-gloom in the media. Everywhere you looked people were talking about COVID-19, including here on the WordPress feed, so I just had to distance myself and focus on keeping my mental health as safe as my physical health.
*Just as a little disclaimer here: despite distancing myself from media, I did still keep up to date with the latest guidelines and information for all relevant areas, such as my work, my country, and my local area. I just didn’t want to keep seeing the death counts and personal stories.*
This brings me to the positives that I would like to end this blog post on: the things I am thankful for this year. As always, I am extremely grateful for my friends and family, the support that the give me, and the joy that I feel when we’re together. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. This year I would also like to say how grateful I am for my new work colleagues and managers. My new managers are so supportive of my mental health, and of my dream career progression. They encourage me, support me, and help me know that it’s not my fault if I’m unwell and unable to be at work. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
So that’s it! Another year is over. Goodbye 2020, you will not be missed. Here’s to 2021 being an improvement. I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas time, as much as you possibly could, and I wish you all a healthy new year.
See you all in 2021!